creation and destruction

i decided to listen to music on my hike the other day. at about 49 minutes into one of my favorite mixes, the music begins to morph into a prolongation and vibration of sound woven over a steady tribal drum beat. though i've listened to this mix many times, this day, a goddess warrior came to mind. she walked steadily and confidently forward with her head held high and everyone moved out of her way. for the 4 minutes that followed, i invited this goddess warrior energy in. i embodied her spirit and honestly, it felt powerful. in the midst of change and transformation, we can straddle what feels like two states of being at once. we're wounded but healing, processing the past but creating the future, ebbing and flowing between moments of stability and sadness. my journey as a spiritual warrior is not always an awake one. the space in-between holds the sweet spot, the juice. it's where the rubber meets the road.

moving forward is energy that is new, creative, interesting, exciting, possibly scary or disorienting. staying attached to where you've been is familiar, comforting, easy, possibly routine and boring.

through a values elicitation exercise in my 12-week business coaching intensive, an old story i continue to tell myself popped up, one that no longer applies but the cord hasn't been cut yet. i might be a blossoming spiritual warrior goddess, but this story holds me back. in my current state of being, i'm soaring upward but still tethered and limiting my own potential.

when we recognize our limiting beliefs, we become empowered to let go of what no longer serves us. awareness invites clear choices. and we may not be conscious of it, but we are still practicing letting go in the act of moving forward. in the energy of creation of a new self lies destruction - old beliefs, old stories, the old us. they are one in the same, like light and dark, yin and yang, shakti and shiva. and so with each step we take on the path to a new self or new life, less and less space exists to also continue carrying our burdens. simply put, they weigh us down.

so one of my spiritual values - courage - comes into play now, to assist me as i continue on the path ahead with intention, building and dismantling, creating and destroying, dying and being reborn.

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