the teacher: patience

teacher's appreciation day was this week, and on instagram, i paid homage to one of my teachers: patience. patience is a quiet friend, the one we often don't see standing there beside us holding a gift. patience is patient. it waits for our readiness to receive that gift.

every practice on the mat is ultimately about patience. practice calls for us to let go of any preconceived notions of who we are and what our bodies are capable of. cultivating this quality on the mat leads to the gift of personal freedom rather than battling ourselves in the moment.

and as i sit with the change and transformation process, patience is with me. i'm marinating in it and observing the shifts underway. uncertainty, while still present, is peppered with acceptance. i've let go of a desperate need to understand "why" in lieu of having faith in the direction of change. anger ebbs and flows, and doesn't stick around too long on the surface right now. perhaps this is because i committed to myself early on that i would try to deal with this situation from a place of love rather than hate. or perhaps as a teacher, patience reveals its truths in time.

i'm not out of the emotional woods at all. but i trust the process, believe in what the universe is handing me, and can sit with not knowing. this has been proven on my mat, it is true in my life....patience is my teacher.