a medium delivered a reading to me at an event

and here's what happened afterwards...stunned, i left the event and headed home feeling connected, contemplative and quiet. the first thing i did was call my brother. then i went to bed and maybe an hour later, it happened. i've been tempted to dismiss this as simply a "bizarre" dream, but really, deep down i know it's a true spiritual, almost prophetic, experience. the wisdom in my body tells me it feels like those i had after kirsten died.

so last night, it wasn't until after i was tucked in, ready to turn off the light that i noticed a buzz running through my body. i was too "up" from the reading. it was going to be a while before i finally fall asleep. but i tried. i know i laid there for a while. i think i was mostly awake (it seemed) but for sure, i felt my body go under like i was just about to fall asleep.

i saw the back side of myself - a separate me - standing in front of me, facing away. in that moment, i was watching myself hang out in my room with my YTT teacher. we were laughing, partying, going out, having a good time. suddenly my attention was drawn to a set of framed photos on a shelf in my room (which, btw, doesn't exist in real life) and noticed where images of me in each picture should be, the face of my YTT teacher was there instead. i remember thinking this was not right and asked, how can this be? why is she there instead of me?

then this knowing feeling kind of waved through my body (i really can't describe it) and a voice said because you are one in the same. visually, images of each of us were being blended together, bathed in white light. and a voice said: because we are all one.

(i mentioned earlier i thought was awake...) if i was asleep, i "woke up" and felt present in my (real) bedroom.